Not Defined By Your Past

I'm sitting in the courtyard of our apartment complex, thinking back on the time I've spent in London. I'm so grateful that I opened up to the idea of even coming to try something new and really taking a chance. 


There is a lot of construction going on as the complex is expanding around us. It wasn't too long ago that I wasn't the guy sitting in the grass, soaking up the sun writing out short term and long term goals; I was the guy running around the construction site making sure that everything was going to plan or at least moving forward. My life consisted of chasing deadlines & living for the weekend. I never stopped to think that a life of sitting in the sun, writing out a vision for my future was possible for me. 

At that time, the guy sitting in the grass was a lazy dreamer in my eyes. Why didn't he go get a real JOB, I'm here busting my ass, paying taxes just so he can sit there writing and planning his future. 

I never stopped and thought about that person's past, what got them to the place they are now. What experiences they have had, adventures they've been on. Who knows maybe they were also once a site supervisor like me. 

It has been a bumpy road to get to this point. I've let myself down too many times to count, but most importantly I let Laura down. The one person I was supposed to always be there for, to make her laugh and provide security. Not to leave her wondering where I was most nights, worried & scared. Or when I was home, never really being present and in the moment. 

Once I got out of my own way and really worked on myself and listened to what I wanted, the world didn't seem like such a small closed off place with limited options that made me feel I had to drink and party all the time to run away from my problems and stresses. 

Armed with the right tools (goal setting, meditation, gratitude, being open & vulnerable, ownership and many more) I began to see that anything is possible and that I control my feelings, no one else. I am responsible for what happens to me.

Can you relate? A lot of times you can be held back by waiting around for the right time.  Or maybe the right event to happen. You put off making decisions to better your life. Procrastination or second guessing just delays, while making a choice moves things forward. In the end, we most often regret the chances we didn’t take or choices we didn't make. 

I've learned that we can’t change the past and that it’s important that we forgive ourselves for making mistakes. We need to learn from our errors and move forward. Can you make a deal right now with yourself to not be defined by your past? Take the lessons from the past and start a new future. 

My question to you is what are you going to do with the rest of your life to ensure you don’t experience any regret later on when you're preparing to say goodbye to this world?

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